A second chance at change
I’ve always been the type of person to have many dreams and goals, but never follow through with them. I would attempt the dream or goal with all the determination to succeed, but soon after the interest would fade. It either felt too hard or I would get bored. The negativity from the peers around me didn’t help as they would have me fail or give up.
I first embarked on this journey with The Australian international Pageants in April 2016, this time it was different. This was shortly after ending an unhealthy relationship and moving on to a new city. I saw an opportunity for a chance to change and I took it. Out of all the opportunities I was given, this gave me the strength to step out of my comfort zone and to an area of success that I have never felt. I was beginning to step out from behind other people’s shadows and stepping in front of my own. And it was because of this new strength I stopped seeking approval of others.
The 6-month journey as a Ms Australia contestant was tough. It had a lot of up’s and downs and many times I wanted to quit. There were many times that I cried and told myself “You can’t do this, just give up”, but I always overcame it by looking how far I had come already and the support I had. For someone who had always been bound to fail I had made quite a few achievements.
There were times of disappointment through my efforts with the pageant requirements (Charity fundraising) as I felt I didn’t work hard enough to for fill them. But I pushed myself, I continued to strive on the ability to change and the courage to make a difference.
Even with these emotions I did enjoy the experience and so much I continued to see it through till the end.
To succeed in something was what I wanted more than anything; I wanted to do better, to be better than I was. But at that point I didn’t realise how it was making me feel.
At this point, only a couple of weeks away from my big moment, I began to feel lonely. I only had a handful of friends that surrounded me. I wasn’t happy in my job and the location I was living in. I did everything to my ability to do what I could to reach the requirements needed and for filled many incredible achievements. But part of me wanted more. I wanted to be with my family, and to live in a city I’ve always dreamt of. So, with an impulse decision I decided to pack all my stuff in my car and make a move to my favorited city in Australia. Melbourne.
Finally, the big day arrived. I made it to The Australian International Pageant national finals. What a feeling right? Over the next four days, I met some truly incredible people, many wonderful inspiring young women who were all there for the same reason as me. Partaking in the courses and lessons that would change my outlook on not just myself, but what I surround myself with every day. Safe to say I was the happiest I have ever felt.
I shared a moment with one of the pageant volunteers. She was a councillor who encouraged woman to be empowering and strong. To stand above all and be who you truly are. At that point I felt a sense of anxiety, the pressure I put on myself started to feel heavy. She told me to let it all go, so I did. I released the pressure and told myself that at the end of the day it didn’t matter if I won, what mattered was I was there achieving a great dream, which to my excitement, walking away with the incredible opportunity of placing first runner up.
It’s hard to say that everyone will get the same experience, because you get out what you put in. To me, I got what I didn’t expect. An understanding of myself, who I really am as a person, my ability to build strength and the courage to change. I walked away with an incredible life changing experience and made so many lifelong friends. Since this experience I have accomplished more than I could ever imagine, I reached goals I never thought possible, and even though I have many downs, I kept my head high with happiness proud of the success I had made and will continue to succeed. I have decided to embark on this incredible journey again. Hoping to encourage young woman to not only be a part of this life changing experience, but to go on a journey of self-discovery and empowerment. This is my second chance as change and it could be yours too.
Renee Turner; Ms Australia national Finalist 2018
Looking at current events and hoping that someone else will come in and make a difference is easy, but we have enough bystanders. What we need are people who care enough to take a stand and fight for the things that matter to them. Every step that you take counts and will contribute to your mission, so never underestimate your power to impact the world.
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